Seven years ago today, my wife passed away. Early in the morning of November 2, 2008, the doctor informed me that after approximately twelve hours of surgeries, there was nothing more the medical personnel could do to save Jill’s life.
The day before, on November 1, Jill and I were traveling with our three month old son. We collided with another vehicle and Jill suffered what would prove to be fatal injuries.
Now, seven years later, I continue to struggle with the events from that day. Even more, I struggle with the question “why.”
Don’t misunderstand. I trust that God is in control and that nothing happened on November 1-2, 2008 that was outside of His sovereignty. Moreover, I do not question God’s wisdom in the matter.
Instead, my “why” question, emanates from my faith rather than opposed to my faith. In other words, because I KNOW that God is in control, I wonder why He left me to parent my son, Bryce, rather than Jill. After all, she was a natural at motherhood. From the day Bryce was born, she always knew exactly what to do -and she performed every motherly task with elegant grace.
For those three months before she died, I would come home from work everyday eager to watch her with Bryce. It was beautiful!
After she passed away, I found this video that she shot the day before the accident. Today, even though I don’t understand the “why,” I praise God for giving me eight years with this amazing, Christ-like lady. She has left behind a godly legacy for our family and all those she touched with her life. Soli Deo Gloria!