My wife had a beautiful alto voice with a slight rasp and warm Texas accent. One of my favorite memories of marriage is her singing to me.

February 5, 2015 would have marked fifteen years of marriage for Jill and me. I struggle to express my heart on this wedding anniversary, so I have decided to allow Jill to speak on our family’s behalf.

In 2008, God called Jill home. Most knew her as a godly wife, mother, nurse, college instructor, and disciple-maker. But she also had a gift for song writing.

I remember the first time I heard her sing. The song was one she had written called, “Be Still.” I had no idea that years later those same lyrics would speak to me so powerfully after her passing.

This video was shot a year after that student conference on the same weekend we began dating.

Sometimes Lord, I look around me and see

Only what surrounds me.

That’s when Lord, Like Peter on the water, I sink

In circumstances all around me.

I never seem to know just what to do

Until I turn my eyes and look at you.

And just as sure as summer leads to fall

I hear you call, You call to me and you say,

 

Be still and know that I’m your God

And be still and know that I am in control.

I’m in control of all the things that pull you down.

I put them there to show you that I’m stronger than your troubles

And I’m always going to be with you through it all.

 

I know Lord I could never make it on my own

I need you to guide me.

So please Lord whenever I forget who holds my hand

Help me know You’re still beside me.

With every mountain there are valleys to go through.

So help me grow in faith and learn to trust in You.

I know sometimes I’m going to take a fall

But You will call, You call to me, and You say,

 

Be still and know that I’m your God

And be still and know that I am in control.

I’m in control of all the things that pull you down.

I put them there to show you that I’m stronger than your struggles

And I’m always going to be with you every step you take with you through it all.

Yes I’m always going to be with you through it all.

 

Jill Jarvis Attebery, 1973-2008